Guess what? I shoot families too. I don't promote my family work a lot, most of my families find me through my boudoir page. I started out shooting families 9 years ago, and I love that it is still a part of my life. I love relaxed, fun family shoots, getting lots of natural interactions. I do shoots out at our place, where the kids can meet my goats and run around the fields. I also love in-home sessions, capturing your every day life where everyone is at ease. Here are some of the families I had the pleasure of photographing this year. I'm looking forward to what 2018 brings!
Wow. 2017 has been amazing. I could not be where I am without the help of all you amazing people who hired me to photograph you. This year, Tyler started working with me full time, and it makes my heart sing to have him near me pretty much all the time. Thank you so much for making that possible. This is not a favorites post, because with over 300 boudoir sessions, plus family sessions, weddings, senior sessions, that I didn't even count- my favorites are way too much for one post. But this is a little recap of this year. I had the joy of photographing in Thailand, Cambodia, and Scotland this year, as well as many different states. I have laughed with a bunch of you, and I have cried with quite a few of you as well. It is an absolute honor to join you in your life's journey. I love when you come to me for boudoir, then bridal boudoir, then maternity boudoir, then boudoir plus baby! You've sent your kids to me, your husbands to me, your wives to me, your best friends with me, and the fact that you trust me with your loved ones means so much to me. I've held hands with some of you in the last moments of a loved one's life, and I've been there to photograph new lives entering this world. I've celebrated weddings with you, I've celebrated divorces with you. I've danced with you. I've had the absolute privilege of being present for intimate moments of your life, where your guard is down and I can truly see you. I am so very thankful every day that somehow my passion, making everyone feel comfortable in their own skin, has become my everyday job. I feel like there are amazing things on the horizon for all of us for 2018, and I am excited to help chronicle all of the amazingness for you. Happy New Year!
Bridal boudoir portraits make great wedding night gifts for your new spouse. My calendar has been filling up lately with brides, and I love it! I love their excitement and joy. This article was going to be about the top five reasons to be bridal boudoir photos at my central Indiana studio. And there are lots of great reasons to get photos as wedding gifts for your new spouse. There's a chance you've been working hard on your body and want to get photos to celebrate that. An hour in my studio can feel like a little vacation from the stress of wedding planning-I promise even if you're nervous it is a relaxing, empowering experience. You could use your bridal boudoir session to do a makeup trial and make sure the makeup you want looks good on camera for your wedding day, since makeup can look different on camera than in person. It's a gift that is probably unexpected, and your new spouse will be thrilled to see the pictures. Those are all reasons. But really, only one reason matters.
You should get bridal boudoir photos so you believe the person who loves you when they tell you that you are beautiful.
If you're a human who has lived to adulthood, you've been through some hard shit. There are people in your life who have made you feel ugly. You have spent a lifetime letting your inner voice believe those ugly lies, you have trained yourself to look for the flaws every time you see yourself in the mirror. It is my job, in doing bridal boudoir for you, to tell that lying voice to shut the fuck up.
Your future spouse loves you, just as you are. He or she looks at the entire package, mind, body, and soul, and adores it. If not? please rethink this whole marriage thing. But I'll assume they do. They have ran their fingers along scars that trace trauma on your body. When you fall asleep and quit pulling in your stomach when you lay on your side, they cradle the feel of your soft belly in their hands. Weight gain happens, weight loss happens, love remains.
The people who love you don't photoshop your face and body into perfection in their mind. The see all that you consider flaws, and they love you for them.
I want to help you see your body as it is, in totality, with a history of strength and overcoming adversity. I want you to see the amazing job it does carrying around your beautiful mind and soul. I want you to love it for the flaws, not in spite of them, just as those who love you do. The greatest gift you can give your new spouse?
Believe them when they tell you that you are beautiful.
Don't say, you can't possibly mean that. But look at this wrinkle. But look at these extra pounds. But look at these muscles that aren't perfectly toned. All the lies in your head you have told yourself for years, saying that there are so many reasons that you aren't beautiful. I used to even get mad at my husband. I would yell at him and say- quit saying that. There is no way you could believe thought. But he truly did, and he still does,18 years later, more kids and more pounds and less pounds alternating, and new wrinkles, and new scars. The love, and the feeling that I am the most beautiful woman in the world to him, remains.
It has taken me many years to get to the point where when he says I am beautiful, I can simply say "thank you."
No protest, no but look at this flaw, simply thank you. And that is an amazing gift to him, for him to be heard and believed. I want to help you give this gift to your spouse. I want you to hear them, and believe them, when they tell you that you are beautiful.
The purpose of bridal boudoir isn't to show your new spouse how beautiful you are. They already know it.
The purpose of bridal boudoir, and any boudoir, is to show YOU how beautiful you are.
I'm not going to pretend it's a magic bullet. That bullshit voice lying to you, telling you that you're ugly, has been there a long time and might not instantly disappear. But getting bridal boudoir photos taken, letting me show you that you are perfect, just as you are, will help you on the journey to eliminating that voice completely.
I look forward to celebrating your beauty, just as you are. To schedule, email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. Make sure to follow me on Facebook at Cindy Johnson Boudoir Photography to see more of my work and learn more about me. And to see photos of my baby lamb and goats :-)
I love shooting male boudoir! I've shot quite a few guys by themselves, and I've shot a lot of guys as part of couples sessions. The reasons guys want boudoir photos taken are the exact same reason women want photos taken- to feel amazing about themselves.
Whether I am doing boudoir photography for men or women, my number one goal is to show each person they are absolutely amazing, just as they are. A quick search of male boudoir images on google will show two things- ridiculously perfect male bodies, and shoots that are meant as jokes. Male boudoir encompasses so much more to me. It's not just for perfect bodies, it's for everybody, and I will certainly never treat anyone's body as a joke.
Guys have just as many body image issues as women do, it is just not socially unacceptable for them to talk about them. As a woman, I can say, "I feel fat today" and my friends will say "no you look amazing!" If a guy said that? His friends would say- "fuck yeah you're fat. Grab me a beer fatass."
The big question-"But Cindy don't you freak out when you see a PENIS?"
I shoot men and women nude. I see naked people every single day. This is my job. I don't ever look at a client, male or female, in a sexual way. My eyes go to how the light is falling on them, or how I can turn their body to showcase their beauty in the best way. My eyes go to the way their nose wrinkles up when they laugh, or the happy tears in their eyes when I ask them to tell meabout the person they love. I don't look at a penis any differently than I do an elbow or a back. It's just a body part. Some guys get all the way naked, some don't, just like some women get naked and some don't.
It's very common for a guy to tell me he's not photogenic, and I just tell him that's bullshit. Everyone is photogenic, you just need to get comfortable in front of the camera. I'm good at taking photos, I'm excellent at getting you comfortable. We'll listen to music, talk and laugh, and sometimes you'll forget I'm even taking photos. That's how I get to your true personality, and you being you? That's the sexiest thing in the world.
I often see posts and images going around that photographers post complaining about how their clients use their images. I want to make my usage guidelines clear, so that I never have to do a post complaining about it.
Do whatever the hell you want with your images.
Want to post them on Instagram and stick a filter on them? Cool. Want to print them out and paint on them or draw on them and create your own art? I would love to see that! Want to practice your photoshop skills on them? No problem. Want to edit them to make them Facebook postable? Please do! There's an iphone app that lets you stick kittens on your photos. Facebook hates nipples but loves kittens, so by all means cover your nipples with kittens! I don't watermark anything because I don't want to, so you don't have to worry about cropping out any watermarks. Print them wherever you want. Print them on regular printer paper or at the highest end lab, either is fine.
I am so honored that you chose me as your photographer, to truly bare your soul, and your body, to me. A photo session with me is a collaboration between the two of us in every way. Yes, I spend a lot of time getting your images to where they make me happy, and I deliver a finished product to you. And I want them to make you as happy as they possibly can, so if you would like to continue the collaboration and play with the photos, I love that. I don't want the photos I took of you only on a pedestal, printed only at the finest labs, at a revered place on your wall. I want you to be able to live with your images, and do with them as you please, just as you live with the photos you take. It's cool when you send me photos of your images on your wall. But it's also just as cool if your photos just live as digitals on your phone, where you can have them close by all the time.
If you post them on social media and you want to credit me and my business page, I love to see that. But I will never make that a requirement. You paid me to take images for you, you didn't pay me so that you can advertise for me. That's not your job. I'm sure if you forget to credit me, or just don't want to, if someone wants to know who took the photo they'll ask you. I'd rather you credit me because you are so thrilled with your experience you want to shout it from the rooftops, than because I told you that you have to credit me.
I know this is completely opposite from how, well, every other photographer I know feels, and I'm ok with being weird. I would never disparage them for retaining these rights or asking for credit, I applaud them for doing what is best for their business and heart, and I understand their reasoning. My heart loves watching my photos take on a life of their own after they leave my hands, and my business follows my heart.
Yes I take pictures of people with clothes on too! I love engagement sessions, my favorite thing to do is capture the way two people in love look at each other. I love relaxed, natural engagement sessions. I have indoor and outdoor space at my studio in Franklin, Indiana, just south of Indianapolis with settings that are perfect for engagement photos. I am so excited I get to photograph their wedding this weekend! All of my wedding packages include engagement photos, it's a great chance for us to get to know each other a bit before the wedding.
I've seen this over and over, from well-meaning, intelligent friends who are parents. They'll post a photo of their daughter and say "I'm going to be in trouble with this one!" The implication, I suppose, is that particular child seems to fit well into society's standards of what is beautiful so more boys will want to date her or she will be at greater risk of being the object of sexual attention?
I've seen people say it to a parent regarding one child in front of other kids. "You're going to be in trouble with her, look at her eyes!" That other kid over there- the not so pretty one-well that one's going to be easy because nobody will look at her. I mean, people don't say that, but is that the implication? How does that make the other child feel- the one who isn't "trouble?" Also, what about the child whose beauty is being described as a problem, as something that is going to be difficult for the parent to deal with?
EVERY child is beautiful. Sadly, EVERY child is in danger of sexual abuse, to imply it only happens to "pretty" kids is absolutely ridiculous, and frankly it is dangerous thinking. We need to teach EVERY child that their body, their soul, is beautiful and precious. Every child will find someone who cares for them, who wants to date them, and that is a wonderful thing. I don't believe we should ever single a child out and say their beauty is dangerous. We should empower EVERY child, male and female, to make responsible informed decisions about their own bodies, to love themselves just as they are. To never make them feel as if being beautiful is dangerous, or that not being society's narrow view of "beautiful" somehow insulates them from the "danger" of attention from the opposite sex.
This is my daughter. She is beautiful. Not any more, or any less, than any other girl. I understand the fear- the desire to protect her, body and soul. I can look at her and see the little girl she is, that needs protected and nurtured and that I sometimes want to sweep away to an isolated island to protect her forever. But then I can look at her and see the young woman she is becoming, her strength in body and mind, her loving soul, her hope for the future, and I look forward to that wonderful energy pulling others into her life that are like her. I want her to be adored, body and soul, by someone other than family someday. Yes, I absolutely want her to find a partner in life that sees her magic. And yes- when the time is right- I want that relationship to be sexually empowering and fulfilling for her, a trusting place to explore her body and the amazing bond of sharing your body with someone you love. I don't want to shield her from that. I want to show her that physical beauty is just a small piece of this amazing life and is in no way the most important thing. It's not dangerous to be beautiful, it's not safe to be something less than what society deems beautiful. That someone will love her not because her body is beautiful- but because her soul is beautiful.
My daughter is beautiful. So is yours. And none of us are "in trouble" because of it.
Sometimes, boudoir isn't about sexy. Actually, with me, it is never only about sexy. There are so many more sides of your personality than that, and it is my goal to capture many sides of who you are.
This beautiful lady came to me and told me she wanted to chronicle her grief, the emotions she is experiencing right now. I'm always so thankful for everyone who gets vulnerable in front of me, who trust me enough to let me in to an intimate part of their soul. It is an honor to be present for raw emotion, emotion that we often hide from the world. Editing her photos, I have to admit, I had some tears. They brought me back to places of vulnerability and grief. But those moments where she smiled? She absolutely lit up the room, and reminded me that joy can always be found, even in grief.
There was very little direction in this session. I believe our movements in grief, the way we hold our hands, the way we bow our head, the way we crumple to the floor, are so personal and tell our story. We put on some music, we talked a bit. And I took pictures. Some tears, some laughter. She told me at the end of the session that it was cathartic to her. Every year, I pick a word that sort of is my goal for the year, and I didn't really pick one yet. Inspired by her, my word is now release. Releasing those things not meant for me to make room for those that are, and to help others release negative feelings about themselves, negative experiences.
Thank you, my client and now friend, for the inspiration. Thank you for letting me see you, letting me into your soul. And honestly? That is the sexiest thing ever.
If you are a member of any photography groups, I can guarantee you've seen the issue of pricing come up often. One of the favorite activities of some photographers seems to be analyzing/criticizing how others run their businesses. It's wonderful to be able to ask for advice in these groups, but unsolicited criticism, or random rants on how everyone else is doing it all wrong and you're doing it right, are never ok.
One of the main complaints I see is "you are devaluing my business by charging less than me." I know, right? I mean that's a complaint in every business. I wish Louis Vuitton would quit running all those ads talking about how Target's $20 purses are devaluing their product. Oh, you haven't seen those? That's because it's a ridiculous mindset. If you are going to price your product at a premium, if you are going to charge top dollar, freaking own it. Be top-notch, be in demand, be the luxury experience that top dollar prices necessitate. Realize that different people have different priorities, different budgets. And different in no way means inferior. There is no way in hell I would buy a Louis Vuitton purse. My last purse came from Goodwill, it was $3, and it serves its purpose very well. I would never complain about someone who buys luxury purses, just as they shouldn't shame me for having different priorities. Some people can't, or simply don't want to, spend thousands of dollars on photography. And that is ok. Some do, and if those are your prices, you need to work hard to find those people.
I've heard often from more expensive photographers, in condemning cheaper photographers, "well you get what you pay for." I mean, maybe, if you're comparing heating/cooling systems for your home? Or pricing out roofing materials? I suppose if you see your work as simply another consumer product, you might think that way. But I'm an artist, and art doesn't work that way. It simply doesn't. So many factors go into pricing- demand, trends, popularity, area of the country you're in- that the saying "you get what you pay for" simply doesn't apply. Pricing does not necessarily correlate with "quality" of art, whatever that even means.
Another popular argument in groups is "if you're not doing in person sales, you're doing it wrong. In fact, here I'm posting a receipt from my latest session so you can see I made $2000." Um, ok. I think it's in somewhat poor taste to brag about what you make, I usually don't see people in other professions posting their paycheck on their FB walls. Also, simply showing the money you brought in has no relevance to actual business income. Perhaps you have much bigger expenses than I do, so you have to charge a lot, and that's totally cool. But it doesn't mean you're making more money than I am. Or perhaps it does, and that's fine! The awesome thing about running our own business is that we get to make our own decision for what works for us. The mentality of "oh that poor photographer doesn't charge enough" is ridiculous. I will assume everyone has thought about their own business plan, their own needs, their own expenses, and are charging accordingly to those. Just like I won't say to someone "Oh my god that's ridiculous you're charging way too much" I would never tell anyone they are too "cheap" either. Oner of the best local photographers I know doesn't charge a dime for her sessions. And that's fine.
I charge $350 for a boudoir session, includes images with print release. I think $350 is quite a bit of money. I am thrilled to get that for a photo session. I realize most of my peers charge upwards of $1500, and that is awesome that works for their business plan. For me, I don't want to have once-in-a-lifetime prices. I get to see women who just want sessions for themselves to feel great, then they come back when engaged, then they come back for a couples session, then they come back for maternity photos, then they come back with baby for a mommy and me session, and come back to reclaim their confidence in their post-baby body. I love being at a price point that makes that possible. I love having other things that contribute to my income, such as amazing client trips and events, so that I can keep my sessions as reasonably priced as possible. I absolutely love what I do, and I love being able to do a lot of sessions. That is what works for me.
I've had people tell me- well if you raise your prices you'll get a higher class of clientele. What kind of arrogant elitist classist bullshit is that? I love my clients, thank you very much. I've worked with stay at home moms, fast food workers, nurses, doctors, teachers, every profession you can think of. For some, that $350 is nothing, they can pay it easily, and for some, they save for months to have the money for a session, and I value them all exactly the same.
If your business plan is working for you- awesome! That doesn't mean you should impose it on anyone else. And if it isn't working for you? Look at your own policies, procedures, pricing, service, and adjust accordingly. Don't blame me.
You be you, I'll be me.
I love maternity boudoir! I love sharing in your excitement and joy. We can do a mix of traditional maternity photos that you can share with everyone, and some boudoir style ones as well. This lovely lady happens to be my friend and my hair/makeup artist. If you choose to add hair/makeup to your session, you'll get to meet her! I can't wait to cuddle her new baby girl. She brought this gorgeous gown to her session and she gave it to me to keep in the studio, so it's here if you'd like to use it! I recommend messaging to schedule your boudoir maternity session early in your pregnancy so I can make sure to get you in right when you want to come.
I love when my clients come back to me for sessions through different stages of life. I had the opportunity to photograph boudoir for this beautiful woman, then maternity boudoir, and I was so happy she brought her newborn back for photos! I don't do posed newborn photos where they are propped up in front of a backdrop- if you want those I know some great photographers I can refer you to. But I love relaxed baby photos, in their mama's arms, just being a baby! I can do newborn photos in your home, or in my studio in Franklin, Indiana near Indianapolis.
In her own words:
"I decided to do a boudoir shoot for two reasons. For myself, and also for every women/girl who has ever felt uncomfortable with their body. I would constantly give myself hell because I hated the way I looked, but one day I just decided that every body is different, but beautiful. So, I want every woman to feel that they should love themselves too. I also did it because my friends always see me as "cute" but I wanted to show them that I'm more than that. I was nervous before, but during and after the shoot I felt empowered. I would absolutely recommend my friends to do it. I would recommend anyone to do it!"
I loved her sweet easygoing spirit, and I love that she wanted to use her images to inspire others to do a shoot. I'm happy that women walk away from a boudoir session with me with beautiful images, but I am even more happy that they walk away from their photo shoot with an empowered soul.
These two encouraged me to leave my little happy bubble at my home studio here in Franklin and go downtown to the White River Canal in Indianapolis for their engagement photos, and I'm so glad they did! It was the perfect setting for their engagement photos, and we just happened to have one of those amazing Indiana early fall evenings where the light was perfect. I am so excited that I get to photograph their wedding next fall. They chose this location because it was where they got engaged. Couples and engagement sessions with me are really laid-back, I love to just watch couples interact and get genuine emotions.
I am so excited to share this week's feature shoot with you! I absolutely adore shooting these two, and they always have unique ideas that make me panic for just a minute worrying about whether I'll be able to bring their ideas to life, then I just go for it and we make magic! This time they told me they wanted to play with images of power, with the contrast between Beth's small size and Jonathon's larger frame. We used the fields and barn at my Franklin Indiana studio, on a misty magical early fall morning.
One of the awesome things about this couple is that they aren't a couple- not in the way you might think. They are "just" friends. And I hate saying just friends because it relegates friendship to something subpar, something below romantic love, and that is unfair. I love the easy kind of friendship where you are comfortable baring yourself, body and soul, to another person. They were so fun to shoot because they would be trying to look at each other super sexy and then just burst out laughing at trying to be serious.
I hope you find a love like this. A friendship where you can laugh, and be silly, and carry each other, and create art together, and be naked with each other. That love can come from a spouse, a family member, a romantic interest, or "just" a friend.
This week's feature is a wonderful couple I had the honor to do a boudoir session for this summer. Here are Dawn's words:
"We decided to do the boudoir shoot because we were both turning 50 and we were recently married, starting a new life together. We had both been in nightmare marriages before. We were both WAY outside our comfort zone, Brian has always considered himself the big fat guy that is supposed to work. I see him as a caring, loving man. When we saw pictures you had taken of others I told him we just need to do this!You were amazing at keeping us at ease and not judging (body images and all), I tell everyone I know about you!"
Seriously. My hope for every single person who sees this is that you have, or will have soon, a love like these two share. The way they look at each other just melts my heart.
Friday Feature: Erica.
This is a special one for me. Clients often become friends. It's a funny thing, when you get naked in front of a stranger, a pretty quick bond develops. I am so honored that people are willing to get so vulnerable in front of me. This is my wonderful friend Erica. I am going to introduce her to you with her own words.
"I first scheduled my boudoir pictures to be used as a gift for my fiance. I remember reaching out to Cindy and telling her that I wanted to make sure things that made me me would remain in the pictures. At the time of scheduling I was a cervical cancer survivor, had scars from cancer related surgeries and from having a cyst removed from under my arm, had done weight watchers and lost a hundred pounds, as well as had a child. I had plenty of scars and stretch marks but I didn't want those removed. They are a part of me and a part of my story. The day I was scheduled to have my boudoir shoot was instead spent in a hospital. My cancer had returned with a vengeance, a nephrostomy tube placed because the cancer had grown outside my uterus and eaten away at my right ureter causing the connection from my kidney to bladder to be non existent. When I tried to cancel the shoot Cindy said no and had me come in a few days later. (I told her I wanted to do the shoot at no charge for her,) My fiance had to drive me, so it was no longer a surprise. It became so much more. The first time I had pictures allowed me to get pictures in my wedding dress with my long hair. Hair I wouldn't have at the wedding. The pictures show a piece of my cancer story. I cherish the pictures with my nephrostomy tube showing, I think it shows people that beauty can come, even with a tube coming out of your back.
These are not the only pictures I've had. The first time I lost my hair Cindy did an amazing bald shoot. Later I attended a retreat and one of my favorite pictures was taken, a picture in the beautiful window showing my port. As a woman going through cancer, for the third time, I know many women just "want to get through and forget" I'm glad I didn't make that choice. I'm thankful to have amazing photographer friends to help me document and celebrate my cancer experience. The photos Cindy has taken for me have been valuable in another way. They help me to visually tell my story. They've been used on my blog, www.tealelfs.com, as well as Cure Magazine, multiple news outlets, on Cervivor www.cervivor.org (a cervical cancer advocacy group I'm an ambassador for) and First Descents www.firstdescents.org (an organization for young adults with cancer). "-Erica
And now I'm crying. I love this woman. I am so lucky and happy to have her in my life.-Cindy
If I could describe her session in one word- it would be joyful! We had so much fun together. After her session she told me- "I feel like we're a team." I totally agree! That's how every session is, we are creating works of art together. A little about Shelby, she is a 29 year old mom of 2 little girls. She said she's been wanting to do boudoir for a few years and decided to get them done before she turns 30. I've done sessions for a lot of milestone birthdays- 30,40, 50, and 60! Boudoir is for every age. She told me she was nervous before the session, which is completely normal, but felt relaxed quickly during and felt great about herself afterward. That's what I love to hear!
I love that she scheduled this shoot to celebrate her upcoming 50th birthday! Boudoir truly is for everyone, there are no age limits and it isn't for just a certain body type. I truly believe every body is beautiful! I am so happy she said I could share all of these with you. She is so gorgeous and I love her free spirit that just shines so bright in these. I've had quite a few people bring vehicles of some sort to shoots, I love that we have plenty of room in our Indiana country setting to accomodate them! I've photographed several cars, motorcycles, even a semi in a boudoir session!
We did some of her session in my indoor studio, then moved outside to the barn and the gazebo. I love that I can get a wide variety of shots at the Franklin boudoir studio. This window is my favorite place in the world to take photographs.
Going outside for photos is always fun because it's pretty much guaranteed you will have a goat yelling at you and chickens clucking at you. If you're nervous, all the animals are definitely a great ice breaker! I'm always saying- "Be as sexy as you can with goats yelling at you!" I'd say she accomplished sexy even with all the animal interruptions and cat photo bombs we had for her session!
I've always been curious about those float pod thingys. But I have a pretty strong aversion to tight spaces and darkness, so it's something I was a bit apprehensive about. I'm always telling all of you to be brave, so I decided to try it out! I went to The Art of Healing in Greenwood, Indiana. I'm going to tell you all about my experience in case you'd like to try it out!
Note: I'm not being paid to write this, didn't get a discount, just wanted to share what I thought!
When I called to schedule, she asked me how long I wanted to float. She said first timers usually go for 30 minutes or an hour, I decided to go for an hour. Go big or go home! I showered off and put in ear plugs to keep the salt water out of my ear canal. I stepped into the water and felt a sting on my leg and hand and realized I had a couple of small cuts, so I rinsed them off and put petroleum jelly on them that they had there and got back in. I don't recommend going if you have any big cuts!
The float tank has 10 inches of salt water. The water and air temperature is about your body temperature, so it pretty much feels like zero gravity once you get adjusted. There was a button to turn the music on or off, and a button to turn the lights on and off. I closed the door and left the lights in the water on at first and the music on. After a couple of minutes I decided to get brave and turn the lights off. I kept my hand right by the light button for a couple of minutes in case I panicked, but I actually didn't feel afraid at all. I turned off the music and did what I thought I was supposed to do in there- laid still and tried to be as relaxed as possible. That lasted for about two minutes. Then I discovered how fun moving in the water was.
I spent most of the rest of the time playing, I swished my hair from side to side. I moved my arms up and down, rolled from side to side, did log rolls all the way around. I found if I curled up in a fetal position i could swirl myself around 360 degrees. I'd gently push myself off one side of the tub and over to the other side. I'd put my head all the way to the speaker to feel like the music was being piped directly into my brain,. I loved the feeling of stretching and turning without resistance. My back, which causes me trouble, felt fluid and free. I liked having the music on because I liked moving around to it, when it was off I felt like my brain was trying too hard to hear something that wasn't there.
For probably about the last ten minutes-maybe? I had no concept of time in there. I calmed down and did relax and definitely felt like I went into a deeply relaxed state. It was weird seeing the same thing with my eyes open as with them closed. I just floated and let my mind wander. At the end I was getting a little hot so I opened up the door, and I liked the new sensation of the cooler air against my body in the warm water.
So, I think I did it wrong. But I'm ok with that. And I thoroughly enjoyed myself. Maybe next time I'll spend more time relaxing and less time playing, maybe not. But there definitely will be a next time!
Do I look relaxed and energized? I feel relaxed and energized.
Beautiful day, beautiful light, beautiful girl. Some days my job just seems too easy! I love doing outdoor boudoir on our property, I am thankful every day to have such a beautiful place to work. Our old barn is always one of my favorite shooting spots. And her tattoos? Amazing! I love that I get to see amazing pieces by lots of different tattoo artists in my work. And I love all her expressions, one of my favorite things to do is just talk and watch the different expressions and click away as I see them!